I remember the stories and the warnings while I was pregnant about how much things would change after B arrived. Cautious warnings that my bond with A would change, we would get to do less together and the dynamic of the house would change. My heart had already been cautious during my pregnancy because my love for A was so great already, our bond was precious and she was the baby we waited so long for. Change was coming for us; Ryan and I would talk about how we worried our time would change with A, how maybe she would resent us for having another baby. We feared family naps she loved so much would stop and with that we soaked in every single moment. We were anxious for the change coming but we knew that the new season of life would be just as wonderful. We daydreamed about what the days would look like. We knew our hearts were full with just our daughter and could only fathom what double the extraordinary love and joy would look like when we welcomed B.
We were nothing short of right – sure things are different but not even close to a bad kind of different. Having two has been so different yet beautifully filled with goodness and joy. A new life that has been truly extraordinary and watching not only our love for him but A’s love for him each day has been amazing. My days are filled with a bit more of a juggling act and I have to be more intentional with my time as I walk into my days but these slightly more chaotic days are nothing short of everything I ever wanted.
From the moment I started hearing the cautious warnings that things would be so incredibly different I made a vow that they wouldn’t be. You see, it’s all in how you look at it just like with everything else. And just like labor horror stories others spread around instead of bliss filled birth stories these stories were no different. My time has be a bit more intentional, sure, but now my arms are filled with twice the love and snuggles. I now have two incredibly bonds with two incredible tiny humans that I’ve created.
We still have family naps and snuggle sessions. A and I still make our crafts and create in the kitchen, it hasn’t changed and it won’t change. I learned with A that I love my children by my side, even though it takes more time and more patience, when I’m doing things and it hasn’t changed now that I have two. Now I snuggle one while still teaching and interacting with the other. Instead of just me talking through what we are doing, A joins in on what I did for so long with her and explains what we are doing to B. My heart explodes at the bond my two babes are forming and while I know what life was like before having two, it’s hard to fathom without both of them to love.
Having two sweet babes is different, sure, but it’s so incredibly good – better than I ever imagined.
And mamas who are expecting number baby #2 who can’t quite picture life with two and loving another as much as you do your first – oh mama, you will. I was in your shoes too but soon you’ll all the moments come together and fit like a glove, your heart grows twice the size and you soon won’t remember what it was like before you had two tiny people who hold your heart. ????
The shirt I’m wearing above is the Soothe Shirt, courtesy of Lalabu. This shirt is incredibly useful! The convenience of it being a shirt with the pouch already there is really convenient when you are going in somewhere and either it’s not worth putting on a wrap or ergo, or it’s a quick visit. I’ve used it a lot for dr appts, a quick run into the store, taking my toddler to the library and getting things done around the house. The weight limit is also less at the 15lbs – BUT it’s a nursing shirt too for there after! I’ve worn this shirt many, many times and washes it just as many without having any stretch. I really love Lalabu’s Soothe Shirt – total must have! I have the purple shirt and I’ve gotta say I can pair it with anything which is super awesome!