If we could meet for coffee I would invite you into my come for coffee and greet you at my door with A in my left arm, alongside our two overly friendly pups. I would apologize for their over-love for people.
I’d offer you coffee, or tea or a big glass of water or ice tea if you’d rather. For me, I’ll have a bit of coffee in my small white coffee cup with blue flowers because that’s really all I have the desire to drink without being wasteful, and with that I’ll also have my large cup from the hospital full of ice water because the truth is, it’s become my favorite cup.
I’d then invite you into our living room where I’d probably sit on the left side of my couch cuddling sweet A, and invite you to sit wherever you would like.
I’d start by asking you how you have been? I’d asking how your Thanksgiving was and how life has been going since we last chatted.
I’d tell you how we met our beautiful little girl on November 16th at 10:31am via scheduled c-section because the cardiologist was concerned labor would be too much for my heart & if it would have been too much – it would have been too hard to get me back and since Ryan needs his wife & A needs her mama – it was most important that we played it safe.
I would tell you she was smaller than we predicted at 6 lbs 10 oz and 19 inches long and that she is perfect in every way.
I would tell you that we spent Fri-Monday in the hospital because of having a c-section but I was ready to go home by Saturday, so much so I was wearing normal clothes from Sat-Monday. I would say that the most frustrating thing about our hospital stay was the nurses changing every 12 hours and having a new set of “do things this way or that” and I was just ready to be home and be a mama my way.
I would tell you that Monday we got to come home which was a joyous, exciting thing – starting our new little life with our new little addition – also had a lot of heartbreak that night. That night we lost one of our fur-babies, he died in our arms after being hit by a car – that’s what is believed to have happened via the vet after we called and told him how he was acting before he died.
I’d spare you the details, but would probably have tears welling in my eyes because even 2 weeks after it happened my heart still is broken just thinking about it.
I would tell you that I have laughed and cried more in the past two weeks than I think I have in forever and that I was unbelievably spoiled having Ryan home for two full weeks. With that being said my heart has been so full. So full of love and so full of happy. My tears have been from everything from the loss of our beloved cat, to moments of being overjoyed of the blessings happening right before my eyes.
I would tell you that my c-section recovery was not nearly as bad as I expected – maybe it was mind over matter and that I was determined to heal quickly – or maybe it was simply the prayers of those who knew of the c-section.
I would tell you that my dad came out here just to meet A the day she was born, drove out the day before then drove home that Friday. He then returned that Wednesday to spend thanksgiving with us – which was hosted at our house – and Ryan’s family joined us.
I would tell you that although time with family is great – after the week full of family, it was plenty and week 2 we banned people from our house and it felt amazing.
I would tell you that tomorrow I celebrate three years of being married to my best friend, soul mate and the father of my sweet baby A and I’m sooooo incredibly blessed.
Lastly, I would tell you that I needed the two week break I took – I wasn’t as disconnected in all areas like I planned but I definitely needed the break from the blog and now my heart is full, and I’m ready to make this blog what I want it to be.
I’m ready to be present.
Dear Lord, Kristina! I am experiencing the same emotional highs and lows at this very moment. Your little girl is adorable – perfect just as you described her. You look so happy and content with her in your arms and I am very happy and relieved to know that you gave birth without complications and that mother and child emerged from the hospital in fine shape. Congratulations, dear friend! At the same time I am grief stricken that you lost one of your precious fur babies, your beloved cat. (Is it Linka?) You know how much I love animals and I always enjoyed seeing pictures of this one. I am terribly sorry you suffered this loss in the midst of an otherwise joyous occasion. Happy anniversary to what I consider to be a perfect couple and best wishes for the happiest of holidays, dear Kristina!
Thank you so much! We are so blessed and it was such a week of ups and downs that is for sure.
I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your kitty, but congratulations on your little girl! She’s darling!
Thanks!
You deserved a 2 week break, but welcome back! Glad you and baby A have been having lots of bonding and snuggly time.
On an unrelated topic, one of my dad’s photos is going to be exhibited at the Fielder Gallery starting on the 7th… I was thinking about trying to get together a blogger meet-up to see the exhibit. Do you think that you (and maybe baby A) would be interested?
Oh yes, definitely soaked up (and continue to soak up) all of bonding and snuggly moments!
And yes, we should figure out a time to meet up and see it!
Beautiful baby! Beautiful mama!
Hospital stays are no fun… I think especially after having a c-section (more so) because you can’t move as much!
Yes indeed! The first 24 hours of not being able to get out of bed was terrible, I was antsy by the next day just to get up. I was determined to be up and around after being in bed that long, it wasn’t easy but I just had to for myself. I’m glad I did though, I’ll be doing a post about it soon!
You need that time away.. enjoy the real things in life.. enjoy..
I’m sorry to hear about your cat, but I’m glad everything is well with you and Baby A! 🙂
Thanks!
Congratulations to you both! I have been waiting for this post for so long, to see the photos of your beautiful little girl. You look so happy and content with her in your arms. I’m sure you and Ryan will make the bestest mummy and daddy.
On the other side of the coin, I am so sorry that you lost one of your fur babies like that. How upsetting for you, and I can imagine that it’s been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster for you. Sending hugs and blessings to all three of you!
Definitely a rollercoaster ride! The first two weeks were the most bittersweet, we were celebrating and mourning, it was all of the place!
I am SO sorry to hear about your fur baby. 🙁 I’m also so happy for you and precious A! 🙂 This is such a bittersweet post, friend. Love you!
Thank you! It was a bittersweet one to write for sure!
congratulations, kid.
Thanks!