Weight on my Heart

This blog has been my corner of the internet world for over five years.
It’s been a fixture in my life full of my hearts ramblings.
It’s shown growth over time, it shown change, it’s shown my heart.
I’ve documented monumental moments, shared what’s weighed on my heart and all of the adventures of our lives the past several years.
For many years this blog was made up of connections that I’ve made and blog-friendships have developed becoming part of our life and us becoming part of theirs.

It’s a beautiful thing.
I didn’t care who read my blog, as no one read it that I knew. I could write what was on my heart without thinking twice, without worrying if my words would be taken “personally” as if they were directed at them.

But recently I’ve had a bit of troublesome thoughts weighing on my heart about this blog.
For years, we have shared our lives with all of you. But in our personal lives we are private people, we don’t have Facebook for the very reason. Those closest to us that we want to know whats in our lives – we talk to, we share moments and things with. With blogging that was never a problem, until recently.

We made the decision together to step away from a friendship of a few years, step away entirely – requesting that they don’t contact us, and that our request was that all ties were severed. However, we know that our request won’t be honored, as it’s already been infringed upon.

I haven’t posted any new photos or posted baby updates, I haven’t shared things weighing on my heart and this breaks it even more. I’ve received emails checking on us and the baby and sending wishes our way – and inquiring why there haven’t been more updates.

Now, I’m going to add that there is no threat of this other person being a harm in anyway – so please don’t worry about that friends. It’s purely that we are more private people, I suppose that might sound silly since our lives are posted on the Internet but part of me feels different now. Feels like there isn’t a boundary even at the request.

So maybe this post sounds silly, but I’m at a crossroads now in my life. If there is a line that can’t be drawn and respected then maybe it’s time to close down this blog, deleting my hard work of 5 years. Maybe it’s changing the domain and losing followers or making it private losing new followers. I’m not sure, but at the moment I’m brutally torn – because I feel like this isn’t our open space anymore.