I was supposed to write a blog post yesterday. I found myself last night at 11:30pm on a Saturday night scrolling through Pinterest just to find a quote to toss up, anything that I could put up there just to say I got a post up for the day. And I found one….and I posted it….and I wasn’t happy I did it. I wasn’t happy I tossed something up just to say I showed up in the space like the challenge says to. I found myself thinking “I promised myself that in this space quality over quantity. This isn’t following that.” So. I deleted it today and I felt better. It felt good.
It’s important to me to show up in this space, I want to be here and the challenge has been really awesome. I walked into it with big plans and last night I realized that although the change is 31 days straight – in this season of life, with the chaos of things going on that’s just not an obtainable goal right now. I so desperately wanted it to be even looking at my month going “okay Ryan is out of town most of the month, my cousin is staying with me for a visit, I have an extra two dogs for 10 days while my grandparents are in New York…and my kids to take care, clients to tend to and a blog to take care of all while keeping my sanity. Meh, the 31 day challenge will be okay….right?!”
I’m saying right now that I’m serving myself up a great scoop of grace and saying its too much. In this season of life and all that is coming with it, blogging daily isn’t going to happen and that’s okay. When I’m in this space, I only want to be here with intention and my reality is that right now that might not be daily and that’s okay.
So instead of being bummed about it, I’m going to look at the crazy going on right now and say “10 days out of 11, sure isn’t too bad. Grace mama. Grace.”
What do you need to give yourself grace for? Or give yourself permission to just give progress to instead of perfection?