This week has started out kind of…frumpy. We got a very short, very lovely thirty-six hours with Ryan before he was pulled away to work 1800 miles away for another two weeks. The first few days after he goes out of town there is always something a little off about the energy of the house. We all just miss Ryan and have to find a new rhythm, so to speak. This week started out with the weather very chilly, very gray and overall pretty “meh” which didn’t help with the house feeling a bit “off”.
As always though, we rose again this morning to a new day and one that just felt better the last two. The skies were a beautiful shade of bright blue, the sun beamed across the sky and a few white whimsy clouds scattered themselves across the sky. The rhythm of the house started to get back to a nice mr mor mild and smooth tempo. This kind of day always comes after we begin getting back into a new normal and when it does it comes with there’s a bit more hope at the same time; I feel like I have control over the chaos.
Tonight I pulled A into the kitchen while B sleep soundly in his crib and we made pizza and giggled & chatted about silly simple little things. The sun set in the background of our evening and about that time I clicked on my phone only for it to die as I opened the camera to snap some more photos.
As I walked in my room to put my phone on the charger our blinds had a beautiful tone of pink from the sunset and were begging to be opened. So I pulled the cords slowly to unleash the light and it spilled across the bed and flooded the room. It was the kind of light that I would have probably snapped a photo had my phone been dead but I couldn’t.
So instead, I sat there breathing in that picture perfect moment of the warm, soft sunlight pouring into my room and onto our king size bed highlighting A’s stuffed bunny, a burp cloth and my messy decorative pillows sprinkled across the head of the bed. Breathing in a unbelievably simple day-to-day scene that in that moment was a breathtaking reminder of this irreplaceable season we are living in right now. A reminder that even on the days that feel like a roller coaster of chaos it’s incredibly good, even in the most ordinary day to day moments I’m incredibly blessed.