Movies make me think. A Lot.
I’m sure that’s kind of the point, they get our thoughts going, memories flashing and our emotions amped up.
That’s why we keep watching them.
Movies since being a mama have become few and far between but sometimes we find the time to watch something and when we do a different things catch me and move me, or make me think than what did before. Not necessarily totally different but more like…more things.
We watched Twilight Breaking Dawn Part 2 this last week and it go me thinking about memories. Memories of our children, memories that A will have, and memories that I recall from my childhood.
In the movie the first time Bella meets Renesmme (like 3 days after her birth), Renesmme reaches her hand up to Bella’s face and images transpire. Bella inquires what that is and Edward explains that she is showing her the first memories she has of Bella.
So I started wondering and thinking about A’s memories, what she remembers now, what she will remember later.
For me, I have memories as early as about one and half-ish. I remember sitting at the coffee table coloring with my grandma, the couch behind me, the TV in front of me and the front door in front of me and to the right. It was the evening and my parent’s just came home from their trip to Jamaica.
My memory was at my second birthday party in the basement of a local Pizza Hut, sitting at the end of the table in a highchair and a choked on a piece of broccoli.
I remember being about three or four and my mom trying to get me to nap, I laid in my bed eyes closed until I was certain she was busy doing something else and I slid out of my bed and quietly played on the floor for quite some time, until I walked out of my room like I had taken a nap. Not much time after that I then said “I didn’t take a nap mommy, I played!!” only to get the response of “well, maybe I should make you take a nap then.” that nap didn’t happen.
I remember various play-dates, from when I was little too, and things from preschool age.
Ryan said that he thinks his earliest memory is at about 7.
I’ve heard of people that really don’t remember anything at all off their adolescence and others that remember things from very, very early on.
Interesting isn’t it?
So, I can’t help but wonder what A will remember, and for how long she will remember it for. We have noticed things before about the things she remembers and things that she doesn’t, like music for example. There have been songs I listened to while pregnant that once we play them again she gets excited, because she remembers it but she remember it forever? Probably not. Will she remember the walk we took this afternoon on this afternoon where the sun gently beat on her face and she was snuggled next to me in her wrap? Mostly like, no.
But I can’t help but wonder what that first memory will be, and why it’s that memory. Was it because she was that happy in that moment? Did her little heart and mind just know to keep that memory close?
All I know is it makes me want to make sure that I’m present in every moment with her, just in case that’s her very first memory.