On October 18, 2012, two days shy of a month before I had A, I had a conversation with my very dear friend Candy from Verte Photo. I told her how I couldn’t wait for A to finally be here, to hold her and have her in my arms. That’s when she told me something that was once told to her, and what she told me literally brought tears to my eyes. She said:
“You should stop and sit a little extra and just enjoy. This will be the only time you have where you can just enjoy the bond you have with A. Once she is born you will never stop teaching her how to be independent from you. Everything you do will go towards that and while you will enjoy every part – this is the only time when it’s just you and her and you aren’t teaching her anything or watching her grow. It’s the closest you will ever be to her.”
Although I was so excited and eager to meet A, this stopped me dead in my tracks.
It didn’t make me any less excited or impatient to have A in my arms, but it did make me sit a little extra and just take it all in. Enjoy that moment.
Yesterday, A turned two months. Two Months. Soon enough two months will be a memory but right now I am soaking it all up and taking it all in. Enjoying morning snuggles, excited squeals and sleepy smiles. Every single day she learns something new, and grows even bigger. Makes me want to stop time. And every time I look back at the photos of her brand new baby body two months ago and how much she’s already changed, I wonder if I took enough photos. Although I know my 20+ photos a day, are capturing plenty, I can’t help but wonder. I can’t help but question if I’m capturing these moments enough or if there is a moment that I am going to wish that I had captured because as fast as time has been flying I know my sweet girl is growing to soon be crawling, and talking and growing entirely too fast.
It’s a bittersweet thing, isn’t it?.
It’s easy to be excited for and anticipate the new upcoming steps and the things they will continue to be little but I know I’ve made it my goal to soak up these tiny, simple moments, because soon enough time is going to pass me by and I’m going to wonder where the time went.
The house work sometimes gets put on the back burner, shop orders usually take twice to three times longer, but my friends that’s OK because those things can wait.
They can wait for nap times, or time when daddy is home soaking up time with A because time isn’t going to slow down or stop for our moments with A. They are going to keep zipping past us and I’m not willing to sit and regret the time I should have spent with her when I am looking back on her little life once she’s grown. Instead it’s more important to me that I know that I soaked up every moment, and cherished it.
The job of being a wife and a mama, is the most important job I have.