I came across one draft I had written at the beginning of the year called “On Babies.”
A few lines struck me well, that I had written. They went like this:
“Ever since Ryan and I married, 3.5 years into our relationship, the questions began to pour in on about when we would be starting our family. It’s now been over 2 years since we married, and we still have no babies and the questions still pour in. Friends have passed us in having kids, 2 of the 3 younger siblings of ours have beat us to it. Part of me is envious.
With every person that announces their pregnancies I rejoice for them, but part of me cries inside – wondering when it will be our turn, if it will be our turn. We even have names picked out.
One month before we were pregnant.
In five years prior to our pregnancy we didn’t take many precautions to prevent a sweet baby, and it didn’t happen.
Inevitably it left us wondering if it was even possible.
Though my heart longed for it, it happened not when I wanted it the most, or the moments I had a little envy for those excited for their latest news, but when I handed it Him.
And here I am today, enamored by His loving Grace and this beautiful experience, and the beautiful little girl that we will be meeting before we know it.
And I can’t help but be thankful for how blessed we are.