There has been so much going on these last few months. There are so many changes at once and its overwhelming. I don’t even know where to start. Within myself I am very happy, happier than I think I have ever been. I feel secure with who I am and my life around me. The happiness within myself is what is keeping me going, that is for sure. I don’t know what changed, or what has increased my happiness but its there. My heart just dances from time to time, in a way that I can’t explain, like it knows more than I know. Like it knows what beauty and good things are coming into my life in future, that I have no idea about. My heart thrives on all the changes coming, but my mind is resistant. My mind is anxious about the change, it fears the newness of the things coming.
We will be moving almost an hour and a half away from where we are now. I’ll be learning a new city, starting a new job and starting schooling ago. That is a lot of new to come at once. A lot of being out of my comfort zone, all at once. Learning a new city, getting used to a new schedule, meeting more new people. These are all things my mind, is putting fear in my mind for. But even when I ponder these fears in my mind, my heart still continues to dance as if it has no fear of anything that is coming. My heart doesn’t sass me like my mind does, but it also does let me no all the reasons it dances. It just makes me overcome with calm and serenity. It just tells me that with everything I have right now in my life that I am lucky enough to take with me is all that I need and with those things I have nothing to worry about. I have all of the love’s of my life coming with me. God, Ryan, Leah, Leo, Link and Wyatt….and that is a lot more than what other people people have in changes. I have love….and with love people can do anything. I can do anything.
God is the one that is playing my heart strings and making my heart dance. He knows whats coming. He always does.